We all know there are two different types of people: extroverts and introverts. Extroverts are the life of the party. They can make friends with anyone. Public speaking is a breeze to them. They’re almost fearless. Introverts are the complete opposite. They’re perceived as reserved and quiet.
I am an introvert. I am quiet and reserved while I study my surroundings when I am around new people and/or in a new environment. I do everything I can to keep the spotlight off of me. I have no issue talking over the phone to people I don’t know. I have no issue speaking my mind in writing. I am open and quite boisterous around people I know. But when the spotlight is on me physically, when there are a lot of people looking at me, I clam up. I can barely speak, my face turns beat red, I sweat, my voice gets shaky and I twitch. It’s how my body reacts in that situation. I’ve done this my whole 27 years of being alive. Class presentations were the worse for me.
A lot of people try to take my introvertedness for granted. Even though I am an introvert and I only open up when I am comfortable, I have no issue speaking my mind. If I feel I’m being mistreated or someone around me is I will say something. Beat red face, shaky voice, and all I will say something.
When I say my face turns beat red, I don’t mean a light shade of blushing. I mean all the blood in my body rushes to my face. I can feel it turning red because of the instant rush of heat. And after it turns beat red, it takes it a few minutes to go away. I have no idea why it does that. I once had a doctor tell me it’s a form of Rosacea but I was never officially diagnosed or treated for it. Where I am going with this is how this affected me growing up. I didn’t like the rush of heat or the way people would look at me when my face turned beat red. I didn’t react well to the way people would giggle (and still do) when my face does this. So I try to avoid situations that could cause this reaction.
But part of my self awareness journey is stepping outside of my comfort zone. Part of being an entreprenuer is thinking outside of the box. So, in order to achieve my goals, to get to where I want to go, I have to face this insecurity head on. It is still a work in progress but I am going to beat this. I’ve been speaking more with people I don’t know. I’ve been more open with people. And I’m being more honest with myself. Maybe if I am honest and open, I will be able to be a little bit more of an extrovert.
Having people that fall into these two total opposite types of personality bring balance to our world. It is important to have this balance in our world because it keeps the human race unique and keeps our environment interesting.
“The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else, which makes you unique”-Walt Disney.